The waiting game

Day after day, week after week I sit waiting, waiting for an answer. I check my mailbox every day, waiting for that seemingly golden envelope from either Saint Louis University or Seton Hall.

I never realized how stressful this painstakingly slow process is. Days feel like weeks and weeks feel like a millennium. It is hard to remain confident that they are merely ‘looking over’ my application. I think to myself, “I have be capable of being accepted there”. But as the weeks continue to past, the worry has gotten worse. What if I’m not good enough to be accepted there? What if I didn’t do enough extracurriculars in my past four years? What if my essay was bad? What if that D I got freshman year has thrown me out of contention for admission?

The worry piles up and stresses me out. Of course, there is always Mizzou. I have already been accepted there and I qualify for a pretty hefty scholarship. But, I would almost feel let down if I ended up at that school. Don’t get me wrong, it is a great school and I like it a lot; but, I have tried so hard to get accepted to SLU and Seton Hall that I would almost feel disappointed by settling for Mizzou.

As I am writing this, I am inherently worried that all of the work that I put into the college will be for nothing. Is anyone else having similar fears? If so, email me at [email protected]