‘The kids I live for’

Boy, has this been a week… It’s like all of my teachers decided to gang up on us at one time. Tonight, I won’t be sleeping. I have too much homework to even think of doing such a thing, and I know I’m not the only one because I heard some people talking about it in my first hour this morning too. Maybe that’s what I get for taking so many honor level classes, but this is kind of ridiculous, working from 3 p.m. to 6 a.m. on just homework. When are we ever going to need to know half of this stuff, anyway?

So, Nathan and I are on shaky ground at the moment. He really only calls me when he needs something, which is kind of normal for him, but he at least used to talk to me on the bus and stuff like that. Now that he’s turned his love life inside out and upside down, he doesn’t sit with my friends and me anymore. He moved back a bit to sit with another group of girls. His girlfriend (for who knows how long this time…) talks to me on a fairly regular basis, however. It’s kind of nice seeing how she sees things, but she seems to get aggravated with me as if I’m incapable of understanding how she feels towards him. I do, trust me on this one. If you never take my word for it on anything else, just take my word for it on this.

Zach, on the other hand, is an angel. We flirt a lot, and he’s really sweet to me. I really hope he likes me the way I’m starting to like him. Even though he’s younger than me, he seems more mature than most guys my own age. Then again, I know how that goes. He’ll seem all mature and nice now, but sooner or later I’ll see the little kid side of him and it will drive me crazy trying to figure out how I never suspected he would be that way, but now I have and it’s on record.

Sara and I got into a fight last Friday… It’s been on my mind off and on since then, and I really don’t know how to handle it. We have been best friends for six years and only fought one other time, and we still can’t talk about that situation without arguing. Unlike last time, we’re still getting along pretty well, but we still have to resolve this. We both said some things we can’t take back. She was really upset with me for being friends with her ex-boyfriend and said that she would stop talking to my ex’s, so I should stop talking to hers. She had a valid point: he had treated her badly after the break up. I didn’t realize this, however. We’ve covered how dense I can be sometimes… But it just escalated from there. Hopefully soon we’ll get it all sorted out.